Current mood:

crazy

lets give the army a big HEY-O
so today i arrive home from school and sit down at my computer to check my email.
i took a deep breath thinking about how weird the day was...i had odd experiences on the L, an awkward encounter with a teacher, and a message from mike asking if i had made it to school alright (which is weird cuz he never calls me from work)

i raise my hand to the mouse and as soon as i click, my phone rings.
it's a 352 number.

it's mike's mom.

i pick up the phone and her voice is shaking. She asks if mike is with me, and i reply "no he's at work"

she asks, " I was wondering if you knew where the army was sending him now that he's activated."

activated?
i didn't know he was activated.

she continues, "yeah he left me a message today saying he was officially activated. Wait, you haven't talked to him yet have you. Oh shoot, i'm sure he wanted to tell you himself."

hold back tears.
hold back tears.

make small talk for 5 more minutes and hang up.

crying commences.


perhaps he'll be in the states somewhere, that won't be too bad.


mike gets home.
he tells me that he doesn't know where or when he's going but he's pretty sure it will be overseas.

iraq.



my boyfriend / future husband is going to iraq.

rewind...to two hours before i found this out.
i was talking to my brother on the phone and saying "well, if he hasn't found out where he's going yet, he probably won't go overseas."
i jinxed it.




this is all my fault.

and i don't know what to do...





...but miss him.

end.